Getting Over

When you decide that once and for all, you definitely did and do deserve way better than that, you'll get over it!
I'm slowly but surely getting over it.
I didnt deserve that.
No matter how "upset" he was, his actions and words did NOT equate to the "love" he supposedly had for me.
I know that...I've always known that but it's so hard to get past everything especially when you've spent so much time with that person and stuff.
BUT ive been through worse and I WILL get past this.
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Why??!!

Why in thee world is it so hard to find a DECENT man. I've had my heart broken and my feelings hurt time and time again. I'm not saying that I'm this perfect, beyond perfect woman but dang! I just feel as though I'm a very good woman with a HUGE, caring heart and NO ONE seems to see that except for my family. Well no men, I should say. My kindness continuously gets taken for weakness and in this previous relationship, there was potential for abuse. Not just physical, but all types of abuse. There is nothing that I want more than a family of my own someday and of course I need a husband for that. And before I have a husband I must meet someone and know them INSIDE AND OUT so that I'm not married to some psycho! For real! All that I ask is that a man be God fearing, doesn't curse (soooo hard to find), loves me for me and appreciates my kindness and my heart, is my best friend along with everything else and shows that he loves me in every way possible. I have NO CLUE where this person may be but I'm gonna try to keep the faith!

JANET..MISS JACKSON IF YOU'RE NASTY

SOOOOOO....

I JUST HAD THEE ABSOLUTE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE LAST NIGHT!!!

Why is that you ask?!

Well because...

I Saw Janet Jackson!!!!

Anyone who knows me well KNOWS GOOD AND WELL that i LOVE ME SOME HER.

It's so crazy because it wasn't too long ago that I was thinking, "I love Janet so much. I would love to meet her someday but that will probably never happen."  

I swear to you that was my exact thought and although I didn't get to technically "meet" her...

I GOT TO SEE HER.

I saw her dance, I saw her sing, I saw her dance.

I'm pretty much set for life.  Like I don't need anything else (except for marriage & a family) but uh yea! I'm good!!

I swear to you...I'm saying this now and I Mean It. From the bottom of my heart.

i WILL meet her someday, i WILL hug/touch her, and i WILL DANCE with her...if not as her backup dancer then we SHALL share a moment of dance together.  I LOVE HER SOOO MUCH!!

My Shoes

They won't fit you.

I've worn them for too long and

My imprint is permanently in them.

DON'T try to put them on.

Listen Closely...

My Actions Are Speaking.

And I Am

Finished with the chapter.
Closing the book and...
Putting it on the top shelf, out of my reach
Never to be read again.

I Think It's Beyond Safe to Say

That there are definitely some people that I met this year...

That I truly wish I had never met.

But all-in-all,

I will try to think positively and keep in mind that

Everything Happens For A Reason.

My only problem is

I have No Idea what the reasoning is behind this mess!

Ugh!

Continue to trust in God?

ABSOLUTELY.